I’ve been writing a lot lately but I can’t help it. So lately, I can’t stop thinking about how lonely I’ve been. Since the person I once loved walked away, I haven’t had human emotions since. I have not been the same towards anyone emotionally since. Not once have I opened up since he walked away. I’m kind of terrified that I won’t be able to as time goes by. It’s been so long, and I still can’t be open to anyone. Because he left, my whole logic of trust and love has changed. I don’t mean to complain, because I know I sound so selfish but nothing seems to go my way lately. I can’t find that someone, I hate how I look more and more everyday, I’m barely surviving in the friend department and my family is a rant on it’s own. I just want someone to love me, and be my side like one once did. I just never thought I’d feel this way again, I never thought I’d let myself feel this way again